Dear Dairy,

Something happened yesterday. Something serious happened yesterday. There's a sharp pain in my lung, could take in deep breath. Someone told me to Breath slowly.. But the thing is, i can't breath slowly. I had to breath faster, but smaller breath. So you see, its not that i don't wanna listen to you, Miss chipmunk ):

hmmm, how should i put it.

Just when i though that, this person would call me.. it never happen. However, someone else called instead. Someone whom i never expected that would worry.. would panic, would scream over the phone requesting tat i MUST visit a doc and... would sound as if i could hear fear in the voice.

But anyway i can't talk on the phone. All that came out of my mouth was.. "No... Orh... Ok.. *Cough*Cough*. I sms u."
Wanna know how it feels? You know the feeling of coughing, because you had flam in your throat. So coughing will be able to get it out. Ya? Imagine this...

You had flam in your throat. you can't take deep breath, and all you can do, is small little cough, not powerful enough to "flush out" those flam. And it feels like the flam is in your windpipe. The more you breath in, the deeper it goes in and the more you feels like coughing. The more you wanna take in a deep breath, but the sharp pain, is blocking you to take in deep breath. And so, you feels helpless.

So dairy, is disappointment all you'll ever receive if you place your hopes and dream on people? Or if there's another world which i would choose, it would be imperfect beings.

It feels like I'm running in the wrong direction.
Bring me back to the Cross, to where my Savior is.